Inner Struggle

Crouched down low in the snow. The dead bushes provided my much needed cover as I stalked the large grizzly bear. Currently it submerged in a deer carcass. It wouldn't stand a chance. To bad I was looking forward to a real hunt. After a few moments of thought I charged forward and pounced on the bear's back. For a moment I contemplated toying with it, but that slipped my mind wihen my teeth sank into it breaking its neck instantly. The bear's warm blood flowed into my mouth freely and I drank my fill.

As soon as I had drained the bear I dismembered it and hid the pieces underneath the nearby trees. My thirst was nott entirely quenched. No surprise, however it was enought to hold up the resistance for now.

"Lily?" I called i was Scared for her
I needed her but
I was affrade that she was still mad at me..
I woundered if she still loved me?
I had not seen her for Hours but it felt like Years, maybe
I was loseing my self to seth? i woundered what happened to my self.
It was the Twelth when i last checked, and now it is the thirty first?! what happend to me?
I sware iam loseing my self every moment.
I need to Lily. with out her Seth Wins and i lose! 'God Dammn you seth'
I dont belive in God or
In the Devil but
I do belive there is some where after this life. or we just disapear affter this. "LILY!!"
I called louder rushing thrugh the Snow Serching for my darling Lily.
I carrest the ring on my four finger. we planed on weding when i killed seth... but that was when she was still human...
I Rembered the time
I had started to Develop seth.
I started to toy with other people. and soon seth was there.

When I finally replanted the final tree, I froze Sin's voice reached my ears. I had not seen him in what seemed like months but in reality it was weeks. Emotions that I haven't felt since I had been bitten poured into my body, surprise, and happiness. However, it was also laced apprehension. I had not seen Sin until I had killed my family in my feeding frenzy. Still his voice drew me in, like a mouth to flame. I found myself running towards him. When I came near I slowed down to a walk, fifty yards seperated us now. "I'm here," I responded weakly.

I instently Ran at her. i all most screamed her name. but i just nusled her rughly not leting go of her i just keept nuzleing her shoulder. i missed her too badly..
'lily! lily! lily!' i thopught in my mind i yelled it so loud that seth was on his knees. i win...for now.
i tillted my head down to look at her and i looked at her "iam sorrry lily..iam sorry" i was about to say more but sobing keept me from saying it. i missed her to much to even live.

(i could have made more but iam about to get caught G2G)

(No worries!)

Surprise didn't even come close to describng how I felt. Obviously I had misjudged everything. "Y-you don't hate me?" I managed to get out as I wrapped my arms around him. "S-sin, I killed my family." My voice held all the anguish and dispair that I had been holding back for weeks. If I could cry, I probably would have. A memory of the look on my brother's faces as I moved to kill them flashed into my head. Violently I shook my head to rid myself of the sight.

"Lily." i whispered gently i mumured with a softening touch.
"lily. i missed you iam never going to hate you no matter what you do. no matter what you are"
red hot tears driped down the tent of my face, and i did not think more then that. i held her close to me an mumurred my chimeings.

"when you hear the whisper of my heart you will hear my soul..-"
i hummed a little
"dont you ever think i wont let you hear my soul..."

"i love you Lily."

I squeezed my eyes shut tightly and buried my face in his warm chest. The only real warmth I had felt in weeks. "I love you too, Sin." My voice was shaky and weak but at this point I felt as if I were ontop of the world dancing in the clouds. The angels were truly singing on this day. SOmething had finally gone right for me.

i kissed the top of her head and mumured "Seth took over for a while thats the only reson i was not around.." i kissed her cheek with a ginger emotion. i peeled her from the lush snow and onto the tips of my bare feet.

"Are you winning?" I asked him cautiously.

i started to move slowly, danceing with her on my feet. i mumured slowly "yeah right now iam"

I rested my head on his shoulder and sighed. "We'll get through this." I promised.

i stayesd silent...

"Come on, lets go inside." I whispered, even though I could stay outside all night if I wanted too.

"lead the way"

I truged unfeeling along the deep snow until we reached my home. A moss covered beaten down old cabin which I had chosen to keep me hidden from the humans.

I followed her slowly. at last i noticed she Lived in a filthy shed? this was not even close to what the house i had bought for her looked like.

I laughed awkwardly when I saw his expression. "It keeps the humans away." As I said this I pushed open the moldy wood door. Bugs scattered across the floor but I paid them no attention.

i shook my head "where not gunna stay hear." i told her as a fact. she may be a vampire now. but i would drag her back to the house if i had too.

"Are you kidding me? I can't go back yet...." I tried to keep the fear from my voice but I knew it was there. "What if I kill someone...again...I swore to myself I'd never touch a drop of human blood."

i rolled my eyes at her "well then iam gunna buld a better dammn house iam not gunna live in this shit hole." i mumured to the rats "no offence"

I just shook my head sending a few strand of hair onto my face. Gently I pushed them back behind my ears and frowned "Your right this isn't a place to live in, but I deserve it."

I started to shake wildly. i grinded my teeth steping away slowly i was trying my best not to phase.
i growled thrugh my Teeth. "You Did Nothing To Deserve This." a loud growl keept comeing up my throat.

A low growl rose from my throat in response. "Nothing? Nothing!? I killed my family. My brothers and my father...Their faces, the look of terror on their faces!" I shouted loudly and shakily. "I will never be able to live iwth that! I'd have killed myself if it weren't for that promise I made to you!"

Sins eyes howled with anger. instently He leped thrugh the door and sprinted a few feet from the house was all his clothing. he had phased into his Wolf Self. and his wolf Instintcts Kicked in he wanted human bones to fill his mouth.

I had done it now. In anger I took out the whole back wall of the cabin, tearing it to shreds as if it were paper and not wood before I followed Sin. What was I supposed to do? I couldn't let him do something stupid.